Post bliss yuckiness

It has been longer then I would have liked since I wrote here. After hanging the two large works in the hospital and getting all of the documentation and loose-ends wrapped up, I am in that sweet place that I dreamed about since November; the land of no big projects to worry about.

Why am I not happier? Well, I do know the answer to that and it has taken me years to figure it out. The creative process and the energy spent getting a large piece finished and installed takes its toll.

It is a bit counter-intuitive. I thought that finishing a large work, getting paid, and feeling the sense of success and completion would lead to a high that would carry over into the next project. It doesn't work that way. Thinking it does only makes it that much harder to deal with the reality.

After a big creative and energetic push my energy tends to crash for a few weeks or even months. During this period I am forced to muddle through the details that I have been ignoring when I was working hard. It is depressing and slow. Sometimes in the past I felt so non-creative that I have gotten myself involved in other money making projects that, once the creative energy came back, I was not too happy to be doing. Learning what to expect and how to be patient through it has been a real learning curve.

I have to have faith that the creation will be back. Hopefully sooner than later.

Now, to address those envelopes and clean my studio. Blaaaa ;(